The agony of the feet (shin)

I did a 2:1 run walk today for 6 miles. Every time I started running again, I had to wince because my right leg hurt so much. When I got out of the car I could hardly walk on it. I have a feeling I might have something worse than shin splints in my right leg. I see the doctor on Tuesday morning and I'll just have to stay off of it until then.

I am a runner

I'm scheduled for another doctor visit next week. Until then, I continue my "slow jog." I found it insulting when one of my brother's friends asked my pace and then told his girlfriend if she was interested in a slow jog she could go with me. But then, when I was trying to program the Garmin to alert me if I went too fast, the time I wanted to use was called a "slow jog." UGH.

I can't help it my legs are not built for running. If it weren't for my frickin' shin splints I'd be at a slow run!

I know that I should embrace my inner penguin but it's hard. I like these quotes:

According to running guru Dr. George Sheehan: "the difference between a runner and a jogger is an entry form."

This one is even better - by John Bingham:

• I AM A RUNNER because my runs have names. I do tempo runs and threshold runs and fartlek runs. I do long, slow runs and track workouts. My runs are defined, even if my abs are not.

  I AM A RUNNER because my shoes are training equipment, not a fashion statement. The best shoe for me is the one that makes me a better runner. I choose the shoe that goes with my running mechanics, not my running outfit.

  I AM A RUNNER because I don't have running outfits. I have technical shirts and shorts and socks. I have apparel that enhances the experience of running by allowing me to run comfortably. I can say "Coolmax" and "Gore-Tex" in the same sentence and know which does what.

  I AM A RUNNER because I know what effort feels like, and I embrace it. I know when I'm pushing the limits of my comfort and why I'm doing it. I know that heavy breathing and an accelerated heart rate--things I once avoided--are necessary if I want to be a better runner.

  I AM A RUNNER because I value and respect my body. It will whisper to me when I've done too much. And if I choose to listen to that whisper, my body won't have to scream in pain later on.

  I AM A RUNNER because I am willing to lay it all on the line. I know that every finish line has the potential to lift my spirits to new highs or devastate me, yet I line up anyway.

  I AM A RUNNER because I know that despite my best efforts, I will always want more from myself. I will always want to know my limits so that I can exceed them.

  I AM A RUNNER because I run. Not because I run fast. Not because I run far.

  I AM A RUNNER because I say I am. And no one can tell me I'm not.

3 frickin' miles

I ran on the treadmill again today, after doing 35 minutes on the elliptical yesterday. I was able to do 3 miles and noticed it was easier than road running. But I still had enough pain that I will make another appointment with the doctor, if only to get some deep tissue massage for my shins.

The Ice-Up really works well. I took it to work and I've used it twice there, and then took it home. Not only does the ice stay put, I can hold it without my hand freezing, too. If you have to do ice massage a lot, I highly recommend it.

During today's run I pondered whether I should just stop running altogether. I'm really getting tired of the pain and worrying about the latest thing that might cause me pain. I can't run more than once a week and more than 3 frickin' miles without pain. It is really frickin' frustrating.

Note - "frickin'" is my new word. Apparently it's pretty old - from the Urban Dictionary:

...from Andrew Carnegie's partner Henry Clay Frick, whose name became a "dirty word" in southwest Pennsylvania in 1892 after Pinkerton goons, whom Frick had hired, assaulted and murdered striking steel workers in the town of Homestead.

It's also a term used in its short form - "frick!" by Elliot Reid in Scrubs.

I'll just use this form of the word after my most painful runs - "Frick! Frick! Frick!"